If I had a choice or rather a vision to see further, I never would have guessed that we'd end up here. Some days i feel fine but other days, other days like this week, I don't feel fine. All I wanna do is run into your arms and cry and ask you how did we end up here?
Days like these, I cannot comprehend how we can go through so much together but yet some one else is holding your hand now. Someone else is sitting next to you in your car and some one else is lying on the bed that we chose together. The very room that was built to cater to our needs as a couple, the shared closet, the bed, the toilet, the tv and the desk was all built with us in mind. That very room where i've walked up and down nude, where we had sex, made love is now a room tainted. Tainted is the right word because that's what we have become.
Days like these I cannot comprehend how you can decide to let us go. How you can decide to let us go without even trying or giving us a chance.How you live or sleep at night knowing that you let us go.
Sometimes on my drive home from work, all I do is cry because it hurts. I cry till I feel suffocated because it hurts. My chest hurts from all the pain and sadness.
Days like these, I cannot comprehend how some one I love can treat me like that. How you were my friend before anything else and I would never have expected you to treat me like that.
Days like these, I think, how easy I made it for you. Your transaction from me to another woman was made with such ease. I did not bug you nor did I give you the scolding you deserve .To do so now would serve me no purpose because we've past that mark.
Days like these, I think i'm a fool because i honestly believe, i will forgive you if you come back and i hate myself for being so weak. I realize that I will always love you. No matter what, I gave you all of my trust for so many years.
Days like these, I swear never to be the girl that makes another person not be able to trust anyone else. I don't even know how to begin trusting some one new. I also believe that she will get what she deserves because her euphoria is exactly like mine when I first started. Thinking that it will last. =(
Days like these, all I can tell myself is that it will get better. Tomorrow will come and it wont be the same day anymore. Tomorrow will come.
